Single/Valentine

Single

After being single for so many years...... now i have seriously yearn for a partner whom i can share my time with. And now, i'm really worry about my future, worrying if i'll be single for the rest of my life.
Up until now, i'm still bothered by this question........ but i know it's hard to find someone whom you really likes and who also likes you in the same way..... a mutual feeling. I believe that if people are destined to be together, they will eventually find each other even they are separated by seas or skies. However, i'm not patient enough to wait till that day.............. instead, i wish i could be like everyone else who are using trial and error to search for the right one.
But the main problem is that, i don't have the courage to be rejected..... like what jason tong said: '' It's the fear of rejection, so we are still single........'' and I strongly agree on this........  in the end, im just a passive coward, ain't i ?  or maybe i need some guidance at this one?



Valentine

Valentine day is the day when you show your love to your sweetheart or to confess your feelings to your crush..... however you can also show your care to your precious friends on this day.

So, if you think you are single and you are the only one who's celebrating valentine alone...... think again.
Because you still have your friends.............. if valentine day hurt you that much, why don't we celebrate our single-valentine together? With all your friends out there.
Nobody said that valentine day is meant for couple........ we, the unattached, can celebrate as well.
So, no worries if you are gonna left alone on that day..... ....... remember your friends and they will be there for you.   

Treasure it, because friends in itself are very important in everyone's life......

Tantrum

I believe i'm like any normal human beings out there who had experienced an emotional outburst before.
Actually i don't quite remember when was the last time i threw tantrum, but these days, my EQ was really unstable. And recently i have been perceiving things in a more sensitive ways, thus resulting in some unhappy turn of event and also the uprising of my emo self.

But usually i was able to do things calmly...... however, things changed lately. It seems that something is lacking in my life and i dunno what it is.... I can't feel any happiness now, even if i smiled. Even the aikido which is so precious to me, only cheered me up for a little.....

I think this is it.... i have revert back to my old self..... who only befriends with loneliness.

Haizzz.....i don't really want to ruin my friends' mood and also my mood towards Chinese new year  =.= 

I guess i'll just need some time alone to return to my normal self just like what it is used to be like last time......... i don't really know how much time i may need but i hope i can return to normal before CNY so as to not destroy the harmonious relationship with my family and my friends....... :(

Thanks for cheering me up, even for a little bit...............................i appreciate it, my friends.....

Kind-ness\less

What would you get for helping your friend?

If your friend does not ask for your help, and you volunteer your help........... what would you get in return?    
1) you are awarded with a thanks even if you don't really even help out.
2) you get nothing...... in a sense that people take your kindness as granted.
3) people don't appreciate your help and give you a scolding of being busybody.

In this world, sometimes it doesn't pay to be kind. Some people might even use this trait to their advantage.
So i would recommend people to show your kindness to the right people at the right time. Help those who are really in need and those who will appreciate your kindness.
In another case, help those whom you loved and those you care so deeply regardless of what you will get from them.

For me, i choose to be one hell of a ''kind-less'' people. I'll choose to be a passive helper. You want my help, you just ask and i'll help in anyway i can. But if you don't then i'll show my care for your progress on solving your problem.

However,sometimes it hurts for not being able to lend a helping hands to those i cared and those who are in need desperately as i feel that i'm in no place to help and am powerless to help T.T
And my heart will ache whenever i saw people struggling with their problems of life, thinking of helping them but my urges of helping them would be suppressed sub-conciously.
Sorry for not being helpful but one day i'll............